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  January 8.  Sunday. - Heard a fair sermon by Presiding
Elder Barnes.
  I am a Christian according to my conscience in belief, not of
course in character and conduct, but in purpose and wish;--
not of course by the orthodox standard. But I am content, and
have a feeling of trust and safety.
  P. M. I drove with Rutherford around the grave of Lucy
in the sleigh. My feeling was one of longing to be quietly
resting in a grave by her side.